a different kind of blog post
I go through these phases where I am so incredibly inspired to create creative content and then I find myself in these lulls where I am so uninspired. I have all these goals that I envision for my future, big and exciting creative goals, and yet I can’t seem to keep the ball rolling. I often get together with my fellow creative friends and most of the time those meetings light a fire within, but after a recent lunch date with a friend and for the first time, I didn’t have that after feeling. I found myself making up excuses for not creating new posts and putting out new content. I told myself that I would eventually “get to it” when I had the “time”. Then it got me thinking, the word time is one that I use often. I either don’t have enough of it, or I do and choose not to use it wisely. I develop into these cycles where I try and make the time to get work done, even go as far as creating a editorial calendar, and then just tuck it away and complain again about not having enough time. But the truth is, that with something like this blog, I should make the time, but with being so uninspired lately, I can’t seem to actually do it.
I am genuinely happier when I am creating because it means that I am doing something for myself and it allows me to express myself beyond my regular routine. So why is it that I find myself in these lulls so often? What is it that I need to do to get myself out? Here’s the thing, in a perfect world this blog would be my full time job. I would love to live in a world where I could create and express myself and get paid to do it. With knowing that and knowing that it’s absolutely possible, if I just give it my all, why do I still continue to make up excuses? I think I know my answer, but part of me is having a hard time accepting it.
When I first started this blog it was all about beauty. Beauty has always been a passion of mine, makeup, hair, you name it. As I’ve gotten older I’ve sort of grown out of it and it hasn’t been an easy transition. I know that may sound silly, but beauty related things were always a way for me to express myself and not having those feelings towards that area of creativity is kind of weird to me. I always saw makeup and hair as a form of art, and I still believe that to be true, but I just don’t have the passion for it like I used to. I think losing my niche is kind of scary, but it also opens up the possibilities for new creative outlets and that is so exciting to me.
Knowing all of that and knowing how I’m feeling is a good thing. I think these sort of creative blocks are important because it helps you sit down and just kind revaluate what kind of content you want to keep creating. For me, I now know I want to shift some things around and although I don’t have a clear idea of what that may be or what that may look like, I am making the time to figure it out.
For all my loyal followers out there, thank you for sticking it out with me, you guys are the real MVP’s.